Another Day in the Life of Divorce!

Why is it people say one thing and do another. So this entire time I have tried to do the right thing and be objective only to find out that lawyers are going to be involved. It totally amazes me that he honestly thinks that I am that dumb. I have verbally agreed to not take things that I am authorized to have half. In this process I realized that our children should be more important and that is the main reason I am not seeking more.

I just wanted out of a marriage that wasn't working and hadn't been for a long time. I wanted our children to grow up with what love should be and not have them think that control and belittling is normal. I wanted to be equal and have input on major decisions and feel important to the other person and not just a maid, housewife or anything along those lines.

I stupidly thought that if I kept a clean house and cooked meal, took care of the kids and worked a job to bring in my share that we should be equal and would feel important and special. All to realize that I was never in the top 5 nor would I be until the kids were grown and gone. I was asked to continue my education to better myself and stay equal when all that did was cause problems and have the other person tell me what type of degree I should pursue. I am very glad that I did follow with my bachelors and will continue my degree plan here in the near future.

I only hope that through this entire process that I can be the better person and stick to what I agreed upon with a few minor changes. I have worked just as hard and sacrificed many things in order for our children to have what they need. I have had to swallow my pride a little and ask for help from my family to get a lawyer as well to make sure that we are on the same page.

Through the grace of God I will survive.