Looking Back!!!

Here it is one year later, wow the changes that have happened. My children are a year older and so am I. My divorce is still dragging on. I am still employed. Yeah!

I have grown so much stronger in my faith which has brought me through this past year that was much harder than I ever expected it to be. We all make decisions in our life and sometimes those decisions seem doable and then as you go through that journey there are obstacles and hurdles that you never saw coming. I get my strenght everyday through Jesus. I also have a great support group that has helped me through these trying times.

I have two wonderful children that were brought into a situation that could have been handled better by both parents. As I looked back on my childhood and how divorce affected me I start putting myself in my childrens shoes and didn't put them in the middle. Our children today have so many challenges as it is no reason to add to them. The influences that they are around are much worse than when I was growing up. The world of technology is exciting but scary at the same time. The temptations that surround them are great and we as parents need to help out and be involved with our children all the time. Yes, its easy to give in when the attitudes start but that is letting Satan win over our children.

Both my children received Christ which was wonderful. I am currently planning a move back home where I can heal with my family and friends. My children are also very excited because they built a better relationship with their grandmother and enjoy that church. I am ready for this move and ready to move on and see what God has in store for me there.

Another Day!

As I sat in Church yesterday listening to the sermon of Taming your Tongue it really hit home. I have been going through some tough times lately. Or as some of us would say some challenges in life. As my divorce is drawing to a close there is always something else that seems to pop up. My children and I are creating better relationships and my finances are finally starting to work out.

The big challenge is dealing with the ex. He just doesn't really want to let go and wants to cause so much pain in everyones life. We both know that things could have been better, I truly tried and I finally turned over everything to God and have forgiven myself for all the things that went wrong. This was a hard thing to do but I know that is was the right thing to do.

I have a close friend who has helped me through this. Its very hard to do all this when all the people I am close to live thousands of miles away. I try to be this strong person and live life but I really wasn't following through with the advice or totally giving it to God to handle.

I am feeling much better now that I have asked for the forgiveness and realize that it wasn't all my fault and by fighting for what is mine isn't the wrong thing to do its taking care of me because no one else will do it. I know that with all the changes that lay ahead of me I will get through this. There will be many changes in this next year and hopefully I will be closer to home and with my family and friends.